For about three weeks the air around Durham
has had this vague hint of change. It’s that feeling that you begin to get when
you know the worst of winter is behind you and the promise of summer is on the
horizon. It’s that intangible but very present Spring Feeling. Back home I always knew when spring had come just
based on this feeling alone. I would go to bed one night and it would be
winter, but the next day the sun would be that much brighter, the grass that
much greener, and the air that much more charged with promise. I used to call
that day Spring Day and it rarely corresponded to the first day of spring
according to the calendar. It was always one of my favourite days at home.
I find it a bit odd actually that when
people ask me my favourite season I always say autumn. I do adore autumn, that
crisp bite in the air, the colours, the apple cider and spiced cakes. I find
myself though missing spring at home terribly, more so than autumn. They are
odd things that I miss, too, like the sound of lawn mowers. Who misses the sound of lawn mowers?! I miss going to Home Depot to potter around
the garden section and choose flowers, herbs, and vegetable seeds for an epic
garden plan I have in my head that never quite gets pulled off. Then I find
myself thinking ahead to summer. I think the quintessential summer taste is
water out of the garden hose, that slightly plastic, tubular taste. That, my
friends, is childhood right there. It was inevitable that I would feel homesick
at some point, it’s just surprising that spring would have triggered it so
forcefully.
Spring in Durham is similar to home. There
is still that charged feeling of promise, the grass is greener, the sun
brighter, and the violets and daffodils have begun to pop up all over. I even
got to hear a lawn mower while I was down in London last weekend for
orientation at the V&A. It’s perhaps the similarities more than anything
else that make me miss home. When the sun, grass, and air all feel like home,
it seems impossible in my mind that there is an ocean between. Perhaps if life
here was completely different I wouldn’t feel those pangs so keenly. As for
now, when I begin to feel homesick, I close my eyes and imagine spring at home.
Sitting on the porch, listening to the birds, watching the squirrels, planting
flowers, making homemade pickles, riding my bike in the park, taking the
ferrets outside to explore the wonders of the backyard, spring cleaning, more
daylight, having the windows open and smelling the fresh air as it meanders
through the house. When I close my eyes and think about these things, that
ocean doesn’t seem so big after all.
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